Friday, May 22, 2009
Until then. Lulu shall pamper me with another bedtime story ? Hahahahaha. I'm sucha bully. Yay me. Goodnight and Sugar dreams !
BOYS OVER FLOWERS
This should do good for the upcoming school holidays. (:
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This should do good for the upcoming school holidays. (:
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I stand on the brink, all ready to go, yet frozen. The classic battle between my head and heart seems to be raging inside of me. My heart simply whispers just about what it wants but my head, could think about several reasons why I shouldn't and all sorts of ways for things to go wrong. I'm uncertain and will need to re-arrange my priorities. Just what do I want exactly ? I dont know.
I had a heart-to-heart chat with mum, a few days back and if I could recall...
Mum: Remember the last time when you ran away from home, for a day, and I thought maybe you were unhappy with how things are now. Do you have any intentions of maybe staying with your dad (since you miss him soo much) ?
Aisha: Huh ? In Japan ? (However speechless I was, I never thought she'd throw me such a question for I have never once in my life, had intentions of wanting to be with dad in Japan. If it was for a casual holiday, that'd be a whole different story. But for the rest of my life ? )
Mum: You know, the paperworks are with me and if you choose to stay with him, I'll have to wash my hands off you and in which means, I have no rights in controlling you in any way or another. But with this, it doesn't mean that I don't want you anymore or vise versa but who knows, you'd be much happier staying with him ?
Making a fresh start is a good idea in theory but I don't want whats past and present to be spilled over into my pristine future, giving it a taint I may not like. And to be re-adapting to a whole new atmosphere, in an unfamiliar space, with no one to turn to, except for one, your dad ? And to actually be reformatting your education system ? It's not as easy as it seems. However, after much contemplating, I'm certain that with whatever decision I have in mind, I'd still choose to stay with mum.
Anyway, MYE results are out. Dissappointing. Very dissapointing. Hah. I shall not elaborate any further and feed you, avid readers with every intimate details. That'd be soo aaaaah, such a hassle.
I had a heart-to-heart chat with mum, a few days back and if I could recall...
Mum: Remember the last time when you ran away from home, for a day, and I thought maybe you were unhappy with how things are now. Do you have any intentions of maybe staying with your dad (since you miss him soo much) ?
Aisha: Huh ? In Japan ? (However speechless I was, I never thought she'd throw me such a question for I have never once in my life, had intentions of wanting to be with dad in Japan. If it was for a casual holiday, that'd be a whole different story. But for the rest of my life ? )
Mum: You know, the paperworks are with me and if you choose to stay with him, I'll have to wash my hands off you and in which means, I have no rights in controlling you in any way or another. But with this, it doesn't mean that I don't want you anymore or vise versa but who knows, you'd be much happier staying with him ?
Making a fresh start is a good idea in theory but I don't want whats past and present to be spilled over into my pristine future, giving it a taint I may not like. And to be re-adapting to a whole new atmosphere, in an unfamiliar space, with no one to turn to, except for one, your dad ? And to actually be reformatting your education system ? It's not as easy as it seems. However, after much contemplating, I'm certain that with whatever decision I have in mind, I'd still choose to stay with mum.
Anyway, MYE results are out. Dissappointing. Very dissapointing. Hah. I shall not elaborate any further and feed you, avid readers with every intimate details. That'd be soo aaaaah, such a hassle.
Until then. Lulu shall pamper me with another bedtime story ? Hahahahaha. I'm sucha bully. Yay me. Goodnight and Sugar dreams !